Orphan

I just received a text message from my mom's third husband. It said that I should never ever contact him or her again, per my mother's wishes. It feels strange to be an orphan. Its a good thing I have surrogate mommies. Like my Aunt Linda, whom my mother encourages me not to speak to. And my mother in law, whom my mother ignored while she was here and pretty much treated like total freaking crap for no reason. Or her own sisters, who she cut out of her life over money years ago. I have sisters, along with me on this journey. I can do it.

Or can I?

Feeling so lost. And the worst part is my tears are toxic so I can't even get a hug from Jim as I am sobbing.