Back to the Grind

I came back to work this week. All I can say about going to work full time, being a mommy, and having chemotherapy treatments, plus traveling to the cancer center an extra 3 days for neupogen is.... DAYUM. I can't believe how exhausting it is! Not to mention, how hard it is to leave my little Jackleberry. I just called Jim to check in and he put the bay on speakerphone. Apparently, in addition to making the cutest, most heart string tuggin' noises ever, he attempted to eat the phone. Although eating any object placed within his reach is his big, new move these days. Jim said he was looking around for me. Cue the mommy tears.... So, please forgive me for not bloggins. I have been a bit busy. I just wanted to write a quick update to let you know I am still here, trucking along. The deal on work is, after working 15 days, if I feel like I am not handling it, I can go back out on a new short term disability claim. Unfortunately, I have used up all of my FMLA time, between baby and you know, cancer. So, if I am unable to obtain enough donated leave time, I will be forced into long term disability (again, which means I lose my position.) So, that pretty much is a big old ball of stink a roo! So if you live in Delaware, and work for the state, and want to give me time, hit me up! I'm just hoping it all works out. I can go back to work after I'm done with chemo, and I want to. Isn't it sad when the system screws over someone who is just trying to get well and go back to work? Tonight I am on 4pm-12am and its about halfway through my shift. I am actually blogging from my desk, and we are pretty busy tonight, so I'm the only one at the office right now, covering the phones. My boss has been very accomodating and let me know that I can try to lay back and take the phones at the office, whenever possible, on account of the lacking white cells and such. I know you guys are dying for the dish on how it is being back and how everyone is treating me, and the deal there is everyone has been very kind. It is sort of awkward though! Some people want to hear all about my story and I can tell, others are just plain freaked out and seem to almost avoid me. So far, the hardest part is wearing a scarf or hat. My head gets really warm, but I'm not bold enough to go bald just yet. I just want chemo to be over so I can get 1/4 inch of hair all over my head and start using my fab scarf collection as it is intended- jazzing up my work uniform!! I hope everyone is geared up for a fun weekend. I'll be working 1pm-9pm tomorrow, but off Sunday for the start of football. I can't wait for a little sleeping in, followed by watching football and snacking with my best boys, Jim and Jack. Go Bills! PS, sorry for the formatting of the blog. Since I am using my work computer, its making it look a little funny and I am trying to figure out how to fix it but am totally technologically challanged! xo